I'm afraid I can't explain myself, sir. Because I am not myself, you see?” - Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland
21 days into the #30in30PaintingChallenge. I’m starting to feel the creativity exhaustion from producing paintings every day, therefore today’s painting is the piece I originally painted to promote this project. It’s also one of the few that’s not available for adoption.
I very seldom paint traditionally and part of this challenge was to learn how to do so. This piece was the first traditional piece I’ve done in a very long time that gave me a sense of accomplishment, it’s somewhat of a compass so therefore it’s going into my private collection. It relates to the Alice in Wonderland quote above, that spurred this whole idea on.
Here’s the thing and this always makes me a little nervous to admit – I don’t feel a deep connection of the majority of what I create, some artists are able to pour their hearts and soul into their work, it has so much of ‘them’ in it. I’m not like that, I often wish I was, but I’m not. That’s not to say I don’t like my work, I do.
Pouring my heart and soul into my work has always been something I struggled with, I never felt whatever was ‘me’ was in the work, the work was something of its own and most of the time it still is but with this little guy, there’s something there, I don’t know what it is but there’s something so he’ll live with me for at least a while.